Tuesday, 25 August 2015
WHAT IS YOUR DEFINITION OF BEAUTY?
Half a year ago when I shot this series of photos with a few good friends, I was full of insecurities and vulnerabilities. Everything you see in this set of photos is a lie and I'm not referring to my face full of makeup. At this point in my life. my confidence was completely, and utterly shattered and I was uncomfortable with myself, being myself throughout the entire duration of the shoot.
It's unprecedented behaviour, considering how audacious and vivacious I am most of the time.
I did not post these then because I couldn't bear to look at myself in the mirror, let alone in photos. But now, looking back, I don't think I look that bad after all. More importantly, I decided to post these because I've come a long way since then and with the help of my closest friends and family, I've conquered my inner demons and have come to realise that it does not matter what other people think about how I look as long as I feel good about myself.
Over the past year, I have come to understand how it feels like to lose every ounce of confidence I had, the fear of not ever being able stand tall again, the very thought of it all just eating ME up inside. Just wanted to say this to whoever's reading this post that, it's okay to feel insecure and vulnerable. We have all been down that road or if you haven't, someday you will :) And it's really not that bad a thing, you just tell yourself that you are stronger than this and pull yourself through and I assure you, you will come out stronger, wiser and more confident.
You are beautiful in your own right and if anyone tells you otherwise, well.. f**k them.
The most beautiful thing is to be happy, don't you think? :)